Tuesday, September 14, 2010

Do you wonder?

Do you ever wonder why you have to feel pain? Not physical pain. Physical pain is only temporary. I'm talking about pain of the heart. For any number of reasons we can experience a broken heart. Heart pain is not temporary, and often never leaves. Pain of betrayal, catastrophic death, being let down, and so on never fully heals. Well, I guess there is healing, but only the healing that God brings.

My heart breaks for the students I work with who are lost and searching in the darkness for hope and peace. So many young girls cutting themselves to cope with other pain in their lives. Young men turning to drugs, gangs, and alcohol to cope with insecurities and the lack of love and acceptance in their lives. The wife that suffers through years of a loveless marriage only filled when convienient for the husband. The children caught in the middle. The single male with a long history of being cheated on. The young who lose their parents to death.

All of these are heart pain that never fully heals. I remember a scene in a movie. Lord of the Rings. Froto gets stabbed by a blade from the ghost kings. He is taken into the care of the Elves who treat his wound and keep him from transforming into one of the Nazgool. The elvish king says that he was saved but the wound will never fully heal.

This is what our heart pain is. A never fully healing wound. I believe in reconciliation. I believe by the Power of God our lives can be mended and healed. But the scars still exist. But, what are scars. My body is full of scars. Every scar has a story that when seen is either a reminder of a painful experience or a reminder of a good one. So our scars remind us. They are there forever. The cool thing about God is that He allows us to remember for a reason.

The thing is though, if you are reminded from a scar of a betrayal or catastrophe you have a choice. You can let the scar make you untrusting and bitter, or you can look at the miricle that God gave you and brought about because of that heart hurt.

Speaking as someone who has been hurt and who has been the cause of the hurt, I can say I am thankful that God is merciful and loves me. He has changed me for the better. Although, I struggle and am learning how to act and react to my new self, He is always there saying: "Be patient my son, I love you and will complete the work I began in you."

Today let no one drag you down. Let no one tell you that you are not what God has made you. I with you am a shadow of my former self. We are all changing, so let's change for the better. And, when we look at the scars that remind us of such hurt and pain, let's choose to live, love, and move ahead thanking God for what He has done in our lives...


Blessings,

Mike III

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